1. |
Battle
03:56
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I feel the tension
Yes, I’m guessing
something serious is here
We
walked on substance
slippery,
tucked in
Egyptian cotton
our comfort
words so smooth to our ears
But just then,
awakened
we heard
a trumpet
inferred
that our lives were in danger
strange
this occurred
when rumors of peace
were spread in the streets
Death?
hard to believe
war seemed so absurd…
But foreboding masses
were gathered
against us
The
grey, grim reality
that we were
under attack
Plus
hooves smacked
concrete cracked
The fleet was here!
We
turned our backs
and ran
from that
fiery cannon
aimed straight at
our hearts,
but the earth shook
and we fell hard
still undertook
to run with scars
But the sky turned dark
and all we could see
were the streaks
of steel
two-edged sword
slashing
shining
its reflection
revealed
where we hid
we
were no longer concealed
no illusions
no tricks
No!
Exposed,
unclothed
a sight to loathe
guilty
caught by our Foe
for cosmic treason
against the King
He stepped up
to meet us
He was
terrifying to see
eyes like fire
we shut ours
in fear
awaiting execution
ready to hear
a sharp blade
run through our necks
to rid us from the earth
shocking
what’s next
‘cuz instead
we felt a river of warmth
Was it raining?
we looked
opened our eyes
the King was wounded
bleeding from his side
blood poured all on us
like drops from the sky
I couldn’t understand
Was that my sword
in his side?
The warrior
I could no longer recognize
He looked weak
He looked at me
And we
watched him
drop down
and die
We
began to cry
and our
bitter tears
touched
his blood
still on our skin
Here
we wept
and
Here
we saw
the fiery One
the King
burst through
the black horizon
He was back!
to shine
bright light
on us all
and we
were changed
to be
arches of color
that paint the sky
all nations
tongues
tribes
A rainbow of praise
to the Risen Son
reflecting His rays
By His blood
Peace was won.
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2. |
Gospel Piece
04:48
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If you have an ear, then hear this truth:
Good news from the Bible, and, baby, I got proof...
So pay attention:
You see, God is
Creator, Lord,
Holy, Pure
And He intends for
us to glorify Him
love Him, treasure Him,
He made us for Him,
But like a stillborn baby, we’re born dead in our sin,
From birth our hearts are filthy,
The evidence: We do not obey Him,
If you say you do obey, you lie in the face of God’s commandments,
And we can’t blame…Dad, Mom, or anyone at all,
No, our sin is our fault
And since God is perfect, He put a price to our Fall
He has to punish the sinner and the sin
The punishment is Hell,
His eternal anger we’ll live in
But God in His love, wisdom, and grace,
Sent a substitute to take our place
Jesus Christ, God the Son,
Became a man,
Lived perfectly, unlike us
But He didn’t just come to be a good teacher
He came to die for our sins,
So God could accept us,
wicked, nasty, rebellious creatures
Jesus Christ was murdered on a cross for sins to pay
He shed His sinless blood so our sin-crud could be erased
And three days later, He rose from His grave
On our behalf, Jesus defeated death:
God the Father was pleased with Christ’s sacrifice,
So when Jesus rose from the dead, His claims were proven true,
Like when Jesus had said,
“I am the way, the truth, and the life, no one comes to the Father except through me,” and,
“If the Son sets you free you will be free indeed,”
So if you’re rich or poor, popular or outcast:
In Jesus Christ, you can flee God’s wrath.
You can’t work your way into heaven,
Your sin has a much higher fee
All you can do is repent and believe.
That means:
Turn from your sin and trust in Jesus the King,
Cling to what He’s already done to bring
you to God through the cross and resurrection,
You see, He wants to clean your heart cuz’ it’s deceitful,
And it will even trick you into thinking you’re cool with God
Just cuz’ you go to church, or prayed a prayer before, but naw…
If you believe you’re a believer,
Then run to the Bible, God’s Word,
Does your life match up with the book of 1 John?
Are you changed by what you’ve heard?
Do you love God and hate your sin,
Or are you living the same since you’ve heard the gospel message?
You can’t repent and believe Jesus on your own,
You need God’s undeserved favor to do it,
So cry out to God to save you,
Then by His power live like He has changed you.
He can save you from His wrath,
Trust in Christ, You’ll be given life with Him that lasts…
Forever and ever…
And you’ll be able to call God your Dad.
He never disappoints, no, He never fails,
No matter how badly you’ve sinned,
Christ can save you from Hell
This is the gospel, in every language I’ll tell:
Confess Jesus Christ as the Lord of your life,
That means He calls the shots
So bow your knee
Don’t follow your heart, no, follow God!
With the Word of God, check your pulse: are you really living?
Life in Christ is the only life worth living,
As one who has been washed,
Cleaned by Christ’s blood,
I plead with you:
Repent for the glory of God
Time is ticking like a clock
Trust and follow Christ before your heartbeat stops.
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If our idea of surrender to God is limited to renouncing unlawful things,
Then we have yet to grasp surrender’s true meaning.
It is not:
“Surrender all to Christ, then you can get what you want—location, marriage, health, comfort, whatever it is for which you long.”
It is:
“Surrender all to Christ and very possibly not get what you want; very possibly lose all,
but get all you need: knowing Christ.
And He will be enough.”
But I see what I want, sometimes more than I see You, even though You’re not far.
My desires are not hidden from You, LORD,
But make them hidden in You, in all that You are.
So if You don’t grant me what I desire,
My delight will still be in You.
Because all I consider loss for the sake of knowing You.
But I don’t say that with a consuming rush of gleeful emotion.
I say it with trembling, and tears,
Because the cost is so high, and the road so low,
And my faith so small, and Your holy love so searing in my heart,
And Your words so alive,
It is overwhelming.
“Here am I. Send me,” is not shouted, but stammered by my lips,
The same You burn with hot coal to cleanse me,
Isaiah 6’s depiction of painful, holy grace becomes my reality as Christ’s blood washes me
From desires to not be like You, but to be You: Lord over my own life.
I am not worthy to follow You, to speak Your name as though You were truly mine.
So I pray You’d make me worthy of Your gospel.
Not my works in exchange for Your favor,
But humility before You who didn’t spare Your own Son,
but were pleased to crush Him whom You loved
So Your own humble, passionate love could be manifested,
the glory of Your grace reflected in those You choose, who once hated You.
You gave all. So You command all.
It has been granted to me to believe in Christ AND to suffer for Him before I enter into His glory.
May Your glory be the joy set before me as I endure this race,
As my Savior’s face was set like flint to do Your will,
Despising the shame, and enduring hostility from the hands of the sinners He came to save.
So now I’m saved from the only part of You that I deserved to know.
Instead of Your eternal wrath,
I taste Your grace forevermore.
Empty vanity surrounds me in a world of depravity,
So the same conclusion I reach as that of Ecclesiastes:
Everything is nothing compared to You,
So You command nothing less of everything,
be submitted to You.
Thankfully, everything of worth is found in You.
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4. |
The Hands of Time
04:14
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I long for the day when I can say to your face, “I love you,”
And know that in covenant we stand,
Even as we walk, my hand in your hand…
Knowing that time is all but sure,
But seeking to serve the One who holds time in His hands,
And taking the time He gives us to love…
Not just with tongue, but building His kingdom with our hands
like the woman in Proverbs 31
Me to submit to you,
And you to love me as Christ loved the church
I wait patiently in faith in the God who loved me first…
Even before time He chose me to be,
Blameless and holy,
In love He chose me…
And in the fullness of time He did more than just reach out His hand,
But let my sin bang nails through His Son’s hands,
To demonstrate His love, and complete His eternal plan…
Then allow me to breathe 2,000 years later,
Let me reach my hands toward all kinds of sin,
(Since birth my natural inclination was to hate Him)
Then He sent His Spirit right in time
To awaken me from my sleep,
Raise me from the dead,
Allow my eyes to see,
All that Jesus did…was for me.
His Word gave life to me, it’s like He…
Held my heart of stone in His hand and it became flesh,
And began to beat to a chant saying, “Worthy is the Lamb, slain for my sins!”
And I don’t totally understand, and could never fully explain His love even if I had time,
But His plan, and His promise, is that time as we know it will end…
And then the marriage feast of the Lamb and His Bride will commence…
He’ll take His Bride’s hand and she’ll remember His sacrifice,
His blood shed to purchase her,
Oh, the words that He spoke to her that cleansed her within!
The Church is Christ’s Bride,
And she’ll be dressed in righteousness, clean and bright
They’ll say, “Yes! She’s made herself ready!”
But it will be He who presents her to Himself spotless, because He said He…
Loves us to the end
Is more than a best friend
The Lover of our souls wrote us a love letter with His hand
Pursues our hearts and then loves to be pursued,
This is a Divine Romance.
So, baby, I love you so much,
But our love and union,
Is a temporary covenant made to represent a timeless union that no human hand can ruin.
I will fail you much more than once,
And your love towards me won’t be perfect, BUT…
We’ll be united as one to be further purged of impurities,
And prepared for our perfect Bridegroom.
So let’s be like the hands on a clock,
When our flesh becomes one
As if time could stop,
When midnight comes
Because at midnight the clock chimes with a beautiful sound that fills the house…
And the hands of time are united for a moment,
Only able to point upwards,
To the God who sits forever enthroned in the glory of His splendor.
Our marriage is only for a moment,
May our union ‘til death point the world to Jesus Christ,
That He may be glorified
Our lives are not our own, through creation and atonement
We exist to live and to know
His Divine Romance.
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1. Marvelous grace of our loving Lord,
grace that exceeds our sin and our guilt!
Yonder on Calvary's mount outpoured,
there where the blood of the Lamb was spilt.
Refrain:
Grace, grace, God's grace,
grace that will pardon and cleanse within;
grace, grace, God's grace,
grace that is greater than all our sin!
2. Sin and despair, like the sea waves cold,
threaten the soul with infinite loss;
grace that is greater, yes, grace untold,
points to the refuge, the mighty cross.
(Refrain)
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6. |
Despair
04:30
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You
slipped through
the seams of my scarf
down my neck
chest
crept into my heart
blew in from
the endless sea
came with
the salty mist
on which,
with cracked lips,
I would feed
as
I would peer
into the dark blue and gray landscape
standing on a massive
jagged cliff
day after day
watching
alone
waiting for
my Hope
Once
I thought I heard
through your shrill whispers
melodies
a great throng
joyful shouts and songs
Oh, sweet memories
you brought
making
my Hope
seem but a dream
and even
white froth below
kept watch of me
mocking me
saying,
“Where is your Hope?”
their certainties
seemed sureties
Had my Hope
forgotten me?
I tightened
my scarf
to recall
that old warmth
now so far
from me
when
suddenly
your bitter gust
became rough
pushed me so hard
I felt compelled to jump
into the wide open
moaning mouth
of the turbulent waters
swallowed up
just
to escape
your icy touch
so
you rushed
through
under
around
above me
sweeping swiftly
just
to pick me up
with
your numbing clutch
but
gravity let my
heavy heart win
or lose
I was unsure
for I could not swim
and
I found myself
engulfed
unable to breathe
calling in the deep
waves and breakers
over me
when
another song
I’m certain I heard
steady, sure words
strong and gentle tune
the voice of my Hope
raised me up
to burst through
the turmoil underneath
so
you blew harder
upon the sea
trying to drown me
but
I was safe
for
wave after wave
turned out to be
grace upon grace
over me
therefore
praise and more praise
I will yet give
to my Hope,
my salvation,
even when
you slip through
the seams of my scarf
again
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7. |
A Year With No Storms
01:28
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A year with no storms
brought forth
a crop
different than the year before
The fruit seemed healthy
bright
alive with color
but once bitten into
lacked nutrients,
and its seeds
were mysteriously missing
And even the trees
seemed stronger with
thick trunks
but their trunks
when knocked upon
sounded strangely hollow,
their branches stretched wide
but roots were skinnier
less firmly gripping
the drying soil
less deeply pressed
into the ground below
And the pond was a deep blue,
sparkling
but shallower than before
less fish
found a home in its
once transparent skin
The grass was finally greener
and upon it the flock grazed
somehow unable to relate
to those skinnier sheep
in the other
tempest-stricken pasture
And the people,
you see,
had more than enough to eat
their belt buckles were bursting
holding back the fat
of prosperity
They were laughing
happy
at their feasts
Their houses intact
and hands un-calloused
from that
storm-less year…
But a creeping
weight sat upon their chests
as they reclined at night
causing them to sigh
before falling asleep again.
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8. |
College
02:54
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We are sent
through hallways and staircases
(then ladders to window-sealed office spaces)
as an ignorant, illiterate flock
into the mouths of twisted,
hungry wolves
with shiny, pearly teeth
Most of us not sheep, but goats with itching ears
Graduate as wolves, proud to be a part of the pack
Some of us wolves in sheep clothing
Trained by the elders to teach seductive deception
Very few of us feeble sheep,
Prone to stray
Foolish and weak
Helpless, except
Our Good Shepherd protects us,
Laid His life down for His sheep
To pick it up again,
Will not allow us to be plucked
From His mighty hand
His Father chose us to be
vessels by which He
would confound the wise, strong,
and things that are in this world
That no flesh could boast in His presence
To do this gave Him pleasure
But we are killed all the day long
And lined up for the slaughter
Where is our Shepherd?
To the right of His Father, sitting
His work for us complete, but interceding,
Waiting to return and gather our scattered bodies
While we groan,
We count it all joy to fellowship in our Shepherd’s sufferings
Soon we will know
The fullness of His joy, incomparable glory
May we learn and trust You
Whose Word, firmly fixed in the heavens,
Is our praise, and depicts the greatest story:
Jesus Christ,
Pearl of immeasurable price
Wisdom personified
Grace and truth
Forgive our world’s leaders and university teachers
For they know not what they do.
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9. |
Keep Studying
03:15
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Messiah or liar?
Some say, “Time will tell,”
But every page I turn in the Bible,
The answer shouts out loud
From Genesis 3:15 to Exodus 12,
Eve’s victorious seed to the Passover Lamb of Israel
The commander of the army of the Lord, that’s Joshua 5
He was worshipped see, in Judges 13,
Peep, the Angel was Elohim
And in the Psalms too, like Psalm 2,
The Anointed One, God the Son,
Who would cry out verse 1 in Psalm 22,
Then resurrect from the dead: Psalm 16 verse 10
And look at His obedience in Psalm 40, then
Psalm 41 He’s betrayed by His friend
But He ascends victoriously setting the captives free
In Psalm 68, then
His exaltation is so bangin’, please read Psalm 110
Plus He’s the chief cornerstone in Psalm 118
Causing unbelievers to stumble,
Yet establishing His church by His love amazing
The Messiah, Anointed One,
God the Son, Prince of Peace, Suffering Servant,
(and I could go on too)
Speak of the same One who is True:
Jesus the Christ,
John 5:39, and Luke 24:27 too
Just encouraging you
Old Testament text should rock you
So keep studying, searching the meaning of His wounds
Keep studying, searching the meaning of His wounds.
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10. |
Psalm 73 Plea
06:15
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Psalm 73:
I saw what the wicked had acquired in this life and almost stumbled, like
How they have all their hearts’ desires,
They look like they really have no troubles
Waters of a full cup are drained from my eyes as they deny the Most High saying,
“Well, how do you know He exists?”
And when confronted with their sin:
“Well, God understands.”
Meanwhile the saints, really the filthiest of sinners solely saved by God’s grace through faith in Christ,
They seem to be the ones chastised, like
What are we doing praying?
What are we doing fasting?
What are we doing grieved over our sin like Psalm 51?
We weep over our sin because it crucified our Savior, but to the rest of the world:
man, that’s just dumb
Why do we trust someone our eyes haven’t seen?
Who are we to say there’s only one Way to God and His name has become a mere catchphrase…to most
But for those chosen to follow Him down this narrow road,
We fall on our faces prostrate at the reality of His holiness,
And can’t stop speaking about how He’s both loving and just, BUT
Doesn’t it seem like living for Him is in vain?
When He’s taught as a mythical creature in classes,
And The Game took Scripture out of its context and said he too was living for His name?
And Kanye said he walked with Him like Christ is cool with our sin, and
My country’s schizophrenic, crowded in churches after 9/11, then
One week later packed back in the club cuz’ they don’t want God,
They just want material blessings, protection, and
Is this the same Jesus?
Who said the world would hate me if they hated Him first?
Who said no student is greater than his teacher?
But that we would weep and mourn as the world rejoices in the very things that God hates?
Is this Jesus the same…
Holy One Isaiah prophesied about in chapter 53?
Whose physique wouldn’t be to our standard of beauty?
Who would be despised and rejected by men, acquainted with grief?
Who would seemingly be stricken by God?
Is that now how Isaiah said He would be esteemed?
And while He was innocent and had all power in His hand,
He closed His mouth as He was sacrificed for our sins like a spotless lamb.
Being far from the heart of God, we placed our bet
That Jesus was just another religious guy who deserved to get killed for whatever He did
And today that’s how His followers are seen…
As mystical misfits, wasting our lives because we flee from sin and rejoice in the truth
And not the lies we used to be fed.
But, man, it’s so sad…
That many who say they believe will never see His face
Because though they professed with their lips that He’s “Lord and Savior”
Their lives never testified to any true, objective faith.
Because out of the abundance of the heart the mouth speaks,
And what comes out is hatred, lust, lies, greed.
Even pride hides behind the mask of humility.
“Well, God knows my heart.”
But you must not have heard of Jeremiah 17…verse 9,
That says our hearts are desperately wicked beyond what we can fix and
God searches the heart and sees that there’s none that seek Him
Well, just His hand, but not His face
But what we see today is not new under the sun
People still chase after the wind, hoping to catch some
Like, “God, give us our way and then we’ll be cool,
“As long as I can paint You the way that I want, Jesus, then You can be my homeboy…
“But don’t give me that Romans 6, die to my own sinful desires stuff,
“Let’s just party and stuff the truth under a rug,
“Cuz’ if hell is where me and my friends are going, then I don’t want heaven.”
But they must have missed it.
People love darkness because the light of Christ exposes our junk
But if we would just trust in what He’s done,
We can experience true Life and true love.
That’s why I plead with people ‘til I’m blue in the face,
Telling them they need to trust in Him,
to experience the freedom that even our ancestors couldn’t buy,
The freedom not heavily advertised by Oprah and the New Age franchise,
The FREEDOM FROM SIN that only the cross of Christ supplies…
Cuz’ at the core center of “sin” is “I”
But the gospel of self-help, the gospel of greed, the gospel of “Do you,” and the gospel of, “God = me”
Are not the gospel at all.
I can’t run from the truth because it has set me free,
Now I submit my life to live dead to my wicked desires ‘til it’s His face I see.
I mean, even in eternity we’ll blessing His name saying,
“HOLY, HOLY, HOLY, is the Lamb of God who was slain,”
Cuz’ it was my lies, my lust, my pride, that pinned Him up on those beams.
It was God the Father who crushed His own blameless Son
As though He had done all the evil that I’ve done
All because He loved the world so much,
That He provided a remedy for the sin sickness that has enslaved us:
Turn from your sins and trust in God the Son.
But if these are just words to you, and you don’t understand where I’m coming from,
Please don’t take my word for it,
Read Psalm 73, you’ll see: God is the gospel,
Who do we have in heaven besides Him?
And if that’s the case then let’s seek Him here.
Though our flesh and our heart may fail, LORD, let this be our prayer.
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11. |
Foolish Vine
01:46
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You blow
chills
down
my spine,
As though
a cool breeze
lifted
the green leaves
attached
to me, this vine,
To expose
the underside,
intricately designed
inside of me
And I’m
intrigued…
So I
suck up
your water,
feeling a sense
of rushing release,
You seem
to quench
my need
So I
let my roots
run
deep,
and
deeper
they go
So I
grow, this vine,
reaching out
to you
around
you,
all over
you,
until you
are covered
with me,
or I
filled
with you
You and I
suddenly
seem
one
But my
roots stop
when they reach
a rocky
spot
beneath
your foundation
My
supply
of life
running
dry
So I,
this vine,
tightly squeeze
around you,
hoping
you
will preserve
me
Because now
my roots
are
drying,
my green leaves
withering
And I
am crying,
“If only I had eyes to see!
This
beautiful building,
so elaborately crafted,
was
decaying and unstable,
crumbling apart
underneath me!”
That cool breeze
came
from the
swinging
to
and fro
as
my object of affection
was
falling,
taking me, this vine,
down
with it
to burn,
crushed
underneath
the smoky rubble
of what once seemed
a strong tower.
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12. |
Confession
03:51
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Lord Jesus
I’ve been so disgusting
Trusting in my own trust and
Hiding sin
Behind closed doors and
Behind closed eyes
A world of unrestrained violence abides within
a multitude of lust,
plus
unforgive-ness, bitterness
festers inside
How dare I
hold contempt for a sister you died for
and I
am swollen with pride
wishing to cry and mourn over my idolatry but
I’m too busy
staring at all my glory
and my kingdom, my majesty
I’m sounding like Nebuchadnezzar in Daniel 4
so filled with empty wind
forgetting You’re the Sovereign Master I was crafted for
All this laughter and fun You see past as a mirage
hiding this dry soul
You’re able to humble me
and I know ways You’ve done so before:
letting me fall on my face
sinning grievously while trying to minister
these
works I do,
the papers, the poetry, the teaching
You know what is done in true
faith that aims to glorify You
and when I’m reminded of that
my heart trembles
but my flesh rages, rumbles, thrashes, trying to capture
as much hidden sin as I can
Oh God deliver me,
cuz I can’t
please, I’m in the miry pit
iniquities overwhelm me
sins more than hair on my head
Oh, the world and its lust seem so enticing
I can’t seem to see past them
Again, again I’m falling for it
fantasies of revenge, sex,
the reason the Pharisees could know who you were but couldn’t believe you:
the praise of man
Those who chase after other gods will find that all they relied upon
brought them grief and sorrow
made them hollow
made them look like them:
unable to speak
unable to hear, see, breathe,
unable to be,
exist with true purpose and fulfillment
I’m filled with excuses
Jesus, please remove this
cloud of doubt that You’ve made me free from sin
this unbelief that You’re immeasurably worth it
living worship
daily praying, studying your Word and
obeying
a lie is in my hand and only Your Spirit has revealed it
These deceitful lusts have entangled me
and are making me loveless
I’m hit!
Arrow’s on fire and it has stricken my heart!
I am on fire! Help me!
Flaming with misdirected passion
“Well, thank God you’re convicted.”
Yes, but God please bring repentance,
I want to experience Your salvation
save this wretch and
bring me joy in You again,
Yes, joy in You again.
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The LORD had closed her womb,
He closed her womb
He did not keep Hannah from
unfulfilled desire
distress and hurt
He closed her womb.
He ordained her pain
on her way to worship
on her way to worship
Every year
was the same:
longing, no child
watching, no mercy from her rival
How could she eat?
She wept bitterly
How can You withhold
from me
my good desire
my good desire…
Her husband loved her
couldn’t understand,
wasn’t he enough?
wasn’t he enough?
worth more than ten sons?
All your food and wine
won’t fulfill me.
She arose
Come.
She arose
I have no portion in this life
apart from You
I have no need to hide
my deep distress
I come.
She vowed a vow and said,
Look on my affliction
LORD of hosts
Remember me,
I am Your servant
Don’t forget me
I am Your servant
If You’d grant me a son
for I am Your servant
I will give Him to You
he will be Your servant
Take,
take
this desire that runs strong
in my veins
this desire
that hurts
good desire
unfulfilled
this pain
Take,
take my longing
and give it if You will
and I will give it back
in worship
for my desire is Yours
this too is for You
She wouldn’t leave her Master’s presence
Oh Hannah
silent sister
Eli saw you
but you saw only your God
you saw only your God
My heart speaks
but no sound
comes from my mouth
My lips move
but no sound
comes from my mouth
My tears will worship
You will interpret groans
Eli took her as drunk
but she honestly confessed
her condition was much
more overwhelming
My spirit is distressed!
I will honestly say
where I am today
Why should a plastic mask conceal
my troubled soul
my troubled soul
I have been pouring out my soul
before the LORD
So here I am,
with great anxiety
and vexation
pouring out my soul
before the LORD
Oh Hannah,
silent sister
broken
open
pouring out your soul
Go in peace
May the God of Israel grant what you seek
May the God of Israel grant what you seek
I am also your servant,
servant of God,
May I find favor in your eyes
favor
though man consider me despised
I will arise
when you strengthen me
to stand and eat
for Your joy fulfills me
You are my portion
with nothing yet from Your hand
I will rejoice
I will arise
and worship
Early, I will worship
before You
She returned
And her husband knew her
God remembered her
Elkanah loved her
God did not forget her
I ordained
that you would be grieved
that you would want a good thing
want a good thing
And I would
more increasingly be
your everything
your every good thing
And I would be
your portion
your very good thing
And you would
run to me
your joy
your fulfillment
And you would not be
deceived to believe
your hope was in a gift
for your hope is in Me
I ordained
that you would worshipfully mourn
and petition and see
I hear your prayers
and I am moved
in My sovereignty
I am moved
and I remember you
my servant,
my servant
I am your good thing
She kept her vow
and her faith was proved genuine
she nursed her child
and gave him
back to the LORD
He is the greatest good
my joy
and my son, my Samuel,
will be His servant
I have been heard by God
and I am satisfied
I am known by God
and I am satisfied
Samuel
so young
he was the LORD’s
Hannah’s gift had come
and he was the LORD’s
No silence this time
she came
with a bull, flour, wine
her Samuel she gave
and the temple was filled with
loud praise
Eli worshipped
Hannah prayed
I must not
Withhold this thanks
I can’t
for what you’ve given me
has shown me
who You are
You’ve fulfilled me
I overflow with joy
not in the gift
but in Your salvation
yes,
Your holiness
perfect wisdom
sovereignty
omniscience
Your compassion
how You care for the lowly
You know me
Oh, You know me!
I exalt in Your strength
I worship You only!
The LORD had closed her womb
silenced her voice
opened her heart
and her hand
He was her portion
Oh Hannah,
silent sister
how you were heard
and remembered
by your Lord.
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14. |
Sojourner's Mourning
03:18
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If I tape this leaf
brown
cracked
fallen from
this tree
onto this paper,
this scrap book,
even if tucked behind
a layer of plastic
I will salvage this season for but one more
before it crumbles
and slips away
gone
like the feeling of home.
So for now
I break off a limb from this tree
It will be
my staff
Embrace
my pilgrimage
But,
We can’t go back…
to that moment
that touch
and smell…
I will miss this.
I miss you already.
I love that breeze
that joke
that movie
that talk
that time we reconciled
that tea
Soon…
everything will change.
I won’t get used to this
sojourning
But,
isn’t it sweet?
what we will be?
no longer elect exiles
just elect
It makes me cry
grief for the passing of this present
death of this bright green leaf
Yet even when it floats to the ground,
dancing with memories,
it looks beautiful
it looks necessary
Sojourner’s mourning
the change of season
makes me long for Home
where everything will change.
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15. |
Legalism
06:04
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Lord God I need a brainwash.
Because for so long I’ve believed a lie, and it has kept me dieing inside.
And outwardly most people think I’m a true worshipper and humble servant,
But how long O Lord have I tried to hide behind good works, and
The teaching of Your Word, and
Long prayers heard, and
By these very godly deeds I’ve tried to merit Your favor.
It’s absurd.
I’ve engaged in the practice of thinking I have a pure motive when I take repentance to be me
Trying to make up for my sin
And I know this sin is deeper than I realize,
Because my eyes have shifted from the glorious cross…to my own performance.
Thinking you only bless my life if I have been consistent in every kingdom discipline I know,
And I know You are holy and these practices are important,
But look how I’ve relied on these godly practices to keep me certain…You won’t condemn me
To keep me certain…You will protect me
To keep me certain I am certainly seen as righteous before Your eyes.
But the only certainty I’ve found in trying to justify my life by my earnest effort,
Is that sin abounds with a stronger grip in my life
And I slip thinking You’ve failed me when I give into sin,
And I leave each time with You feeling more condemned
What is the root of this mess?
Because I feel as though every kingdom discipline is a spinning plate I’ve placed on metal rods on a stage,
And as I set one plate into motion, another plate crashes on the other side of the stage.
And I run around worrying about my performance and perfection,
And each crash brings a fresh wave…of guilt.
Because I don’t study Your Word enough,
My prayer list seems longer than a mile,
I miss opportunities to share the gospel,
And forgiving my offenders sometimes takes me a while.
In fact, I can think of the grimiest, most foul sin I’ve committed,
And this was after I became a Christian,
And it wasn’t just once, but seasons of blatant disobedience.
This sin makes me cringe, and I tremble at the thought of it being exposed…
But this is what You’ve told me:
The greatest sin I’ve ever committed was partaking in killing the Lord of Hosts.
I was an active participant in hanging the only innocent One to live.
His nails are in my pocket and my very sin sent Him to the most grueling death ever experienced.
So the worst sin I thought I had done, is topped by my helping to murder God’s Son.
So if the cross of Christ shows me I’m even worse than I thought,
Then it also shows me that my sin has truly been forgiven by Christ’s finished work on the cross.
Because He has bought my forgiveness, the atonement for my sins.
He has declared me completely righteous before God because He’s substituted His perfect life for every single one of my sins:
Past, future, present.
Justification: my position of having Christ’s righteousness in God’s sight because of Christ’s atoning work on the cross,
Means I’m either declared fully forgiven…or not at all.
There’s no middle ground here, no gradual climbing the mountain of works to attain a position of perfection before God in order to gain His acceptance.
It is only trusting in the finished work of Jesus Christ on the cross that His righteousness is imputed into my life.
And as a result of His amazing work, He enters me into the process of being conformed
Into the image of His Son, called sanctification.
And as I’m being made righteous by God’s working within me,
I begin to see His beauty
And my life begins to reflect His character…
But here’s the problem:
I’ve become guilty of trying to make the process of my sanctification the grounds for justification.
Like I could contribute to justification,
Like I could smuggle character into His work of grace,
What a slap in the face of the One who already died
for my greed, jealousy, lust, and lies,
To set aside His grace by trying to achieve righteousness by my own works,
Which is basically saying that Christ died in vain.
It’s basically trying to achieve self-atonement,
Which really means I want to self-worship, bring glory to myself
But in light of Your holiness, Lord, and in light of my sin,
In light of what Christ has done on the cross, how He’s cleansed me within,
How can I even try to achieve Your forgiveness and acceptance by my obedience?
Salvation is by Your grace alone, through faith alone, in the finished work of Christ alone.
Lord, help me to not forget the gospel.
Don’t let me ever take my eyes off of the glorious wonder,
The place where Your grace abounded more than my sin,
Lord, keep my eyes on the cross.
That I may draw from the wells of Your salvation, not my performance.
And that I may experience continual joy in freedom from sin and
My Redeemer, please, free me from legalism.
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16. |
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3. Dark is the stain that we cannot hide.
What can avail to wash it away?
Look! There is flowing a crimson tide,
brighter than snow you may be today.
Refrain:
Grace, grace, God's grace,
grace that will pardon and cleanse within;
grace, grace, God's grace,
grace that is greater than all our sin!
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17. |
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“Sing it to me again!”
Daughter begged of her Abba,
“that song you sing
with loud shouts of glee
a melody overflowing
with your love for me,
I must hear it again!
while you hold me close to your chest
where I can see
near the sides of your eyes gleaming
those creases revealing
a permanent smile
while
I’m wrapped in garments
you gave me, saying,
‘Beloved,
these are the garbs
I give to my kids
—un-stainable
spotless
clean
perfectly pleasing—
I see you like this.
My Firstborn,
he labored to make these
with his own hands.
Come close, child,
I’ll tell you how it happened
just as I planned…”
And you sing to me
sing to me
with joy burst into dance
that glorious story
Oh, it never gets old!
Each time you retell it
I get a new glimpse,
and I know I don’t know
the depth of its riches,
but that’s what excites me
so tell me it again
until my heart is fully convinced
this isn’t fiction, but real
and really for me
to take part in
partake in its
sustaining flavor
specifically seasoned for a satiated soul
like mine
I have time, I have time!
I will wait all the day
just to hear you sing it over me.
Sing it again, Daddy!”
So Abba cleared his throat
and exulted to repeat
singing the story of the glorious,
loving Warrior-King,
her Daddy.
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18. |
Baby Jaharri
03:25
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“For you formed my inward parts;
you knitted me together in my mother's womb.
I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made.
Wonderful are your works;
my soul knows it very well.
My frame was not hidden from you,
when I was being made in secret,
intricately woven in the depths of the earth.
Your eyes saw my unformed substance;
in your book were written, every one of them,
the days that were formed for me,
when as yet there was none of them.”
I miss you,
sweet niece,
I never got to hold
or see grow old.
I lack certainty
of when
it became real for me
but your picture,
when
at 7 months
you came with
your beautiful brown skin
tiny body
precious eyes
remains in my mind
And I love you
more than I
know how to express
Psalm 139:13-16
my rest.
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19. |
The Substance Of Hope
01:45
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There is nothing better in this life
than suffering with eyes fully fixed on Jesus—
the author and finisher of our faith—
Who suffered harder,
and who in glory was then raised.
That you might repent of all self-righteous claims to rights,
and be cleansed of self-pity’s pride;
And in your heart smile with joy inexpressible
through the tears and lonely nights…
Because God has enlightened your eyes,
to see Him as the only true hope,
And He strengthens your faith to trust Him,
Until that Great Day…
When you finally see hope’s substance.
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First birth: shapen in iniquity
Rebirth: by an imperishable seed
God’s Word: the gospel that now enables me to live free from sin
So, now my spoken word is just a reflection
of His Word spoken to men
whose glory and flesh fade away
when God takes their breath
The salvation His prophets had searched
concerning dates, times, and how
the Lord Jesus would suffer
before gloriously, victoriously beating death
somehow we find ourselves struggling
comfortably uncomfortable with trial after trial
testing and pressing, shaping and purifying our faith—
greater than gold cuz even that passes away—
And when we stand before His face
we will receive the end of our faith:
the salvation of our souls,
So, now our sole goal is to give Him glory
as we rejoice with joy inexpressible
not in our current (circum)stances or happenings
but in the fact that our inheritance is reserved in heaven
kept by our true treasure: Yeshua the King
That’s why it’s Jesus above everything for us
Him at the center and
not just in the mix
whether it’s
how we spend money, study, and especially in our relationships
He’s the lifeline
no more chasing deceitful lusts
time to walk in truth
mind girded, ready to race to the end
Perseverance of the saints
Christians are long-distance runners
pressing on past our past ‘til we’re perfected at resurrection
stripped of indwelling sin
and given garments of righteousness so it’s
no more distractions or pain
just eternally savoring and embracing the Lamb of God who was slain
for our sake
what a wonderful fate
what a beautiful walk
what a glorious God
who keeps us in the faith
by His amazing grace
‘Till forever we’ll praise Your name!
Let the saints sing melodies to the King
standing firm, forever unashamed
to worship Jesus,
the only God who saves.
This is the eternal saga of the saints.
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Quina Aragon Tampa, Florida
Quina Aragon is a spoken word artist based in Tampa, FL.
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